So I've been dealing with BP (officially dx) for 3 years now. Next month will be my two year anniversary since my last suicide attempt .... yeah ME!! I have my ups and and my downs but nothing severe like 2 years ago. Problem is I have no confidence. I pushed myself through college and just graduated in June. I'm a certified veterinary technician .... Wooo-hooo!! Things don't always come easy for me and so I'm proud as hell that I accommplished it!! Now I've landed my first post-graduate job and I'm scared out of my mind that I'm going to screw it up. I've had jobs in the past and I was let go from all but the one that wasn't in my field. One was b/c it was a mutual agreement that it wasn't working out. Another was due to the down turn in the economy and one was quite a while back due to a flare up of the BP. I WANT to work. I NEED to work. HOW do I convince myself things will be alright. HOW do I work to calm my inner child that just constantly worries and creates all the stress and discord in that playground called My Mind?
By the way, Congratulations on your degree!!
I wish you all the best in your new job. I do understand your fears I have them too and I do worry about losing a job (after I find one...) because I have a hard time staying in a place of people "worse" than me LOL We all have to control our stress levels and think before reacting to others. Never letting fear control our minds and life. It is not easy but we have to believe in ourselves more and not let our unfiltered thoughts rule our life. Don't worry about it just enjoy the ride...
celebrate life as much as possible you can work, you have a degree, you should be very proud of yourself. ( I know you are
) One day at the time, don't think negative thoughts about the future. You make your future not others, don't give power to anyone. Control that inner child you talked about you are the one who decide what to do and say nothing or nobody else can do it for you.
All the best,
Alexandra