I'm waay over doing it, lately. After I went to the "hospital" and had my meds changed to Abilify and the dosages of others changed as well as being removed from the Lithium, I'm overly anxious.  It could be that i'm so use to working and THEN coming home to a hyped up house w/ the kids and Shawn, but now that I just stay at home with them, I'm physically exhausted everyday but not mentally.  I think I need the mental exhaustion to make me sleep!  i can't sleep! Even taking @ atavan isn't helping!  I'm tired and I know this is or is going to send me into a manic phase...hell, who knows, maybe I'm in the middle of one.  I've been spending a lot on garden and landscaping things but that's because I'm finding yard work more theraputic than ever. Problem is, I can't sit my butt down long enough to enjoy it.  When I sit down, I get all these great ideas for what I want to do, sometimes go buy the stuff and then go to work on it again.  I want to slow down now, but it's too soon to tell if this is the meds or if It's just life changes that are affecting me.  I'm so confused about it.  Ugh...what to do now.  I can't wait until i have this **** "disorder" nailed down enough to be able to determine what type of phase I'm going through, if one at all.  I can definately tell when I'm depressed.  This is a little tougher, though.  I'll write again later.  I've been journaling on Microsoft Word to track my moods and different environmental things that may change me, but got off track, of course, so hopefully I'll find some things or folks here who can offer some advice or suggestions.  Me.