Well, the "slow ride of leveling off" sure didn't last.
I don't know how to explain how intense this fall was.....my heart was racing insides twirling and swirling, yet my eyes were pouring out the tears,
my mind was cartwheeling from topic to topic, yet i couldn...
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Vicki M
Monday, February 25, 2008 at 11:44 PMYou are an angel
ctrygirl
Tuesday, February 26, 2008 at 06:48 AMThank you so much for your reply to my post....i was so in dire straits and not thinking clearly evidently for i never thought to "search" the site...thank you...and DUH me....
You know what Vicki, you have showed me so much kindness and so much concern for my well being I feel like I've known you and that you really care...that means the world to someone going through some of the things i've been going through...don't know the course this bp is taking and know i've had many mixed mood episodes and very very rapid cycling but this one was BAAADDDDD To the bone...seriously....horrid.
But I certainly appreciate the reminder of the breathing....it DOES help, we do that in therapy group and it really reaches deep inside me. I know we also use it in yoga and oh my the relaxation just takes over.... after i read your post i did just that....4 seconds in, 4 out....and arms up and arms out....and it HELPED for the moment at hand.....
I will certainly read GJ's account of being a caregiver of a mixed mooder and hopefully it will give me some ideas and insight into what the heck to do when it is so intense.....
to be honest this has been the MOST intense of all i've had....
BUT this too shall pass....that is the only beauty of this disorder....it doesn't last long for me in any stage so i guess i should be thankful of rapid cycling, but boy the taxing it puts on the body is undescribable and I often wonder what its doing to my "insides" if you know what i mean...
ANYWAY Vicki, I sooooo appreciate you and your loving, caring ways of reaching out to others....you are a calm in the storm and a voice of direction when all seems a little foggy.....
thank you for being a friend,
i don't socialize much outside of family and this site and you have touched me so often that I just had to thank you....
Please know i WILL take your advice and utilize that breathing more often (one of the coping skills i totally overlooked and forgot about when going through that episode, it was like just breathing was effort and sure didn't relate the relaxation of deep breathing at that moment, now i have a post it on my mirror that says BREATH DEEPLY!!! to remind me when i just forget or get so overwhelmed it's the last thing i think of)
Thank you again my friend,
I so appreciate you, sincerely NOT just words....
ctrygirl
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Hi ctrygirl,
I was reading posts on the site and I ran across a couple you might be interested in. Now you might have read them before and if so I apologize. I am new to this and not sure what others have read or know. But even if you have read this, sometimes it helps to read it over. Now nothing takes the place of your doctor's advice. Only you and he/she can know what is best for you. But it never hurts to see what others are doing and ask questions, lots and lots of questions.
First things first tho,
1. breathe in
2. breathe out
3. repeat over and over.
:)
GJ Gregory wrote a post about the Bipolar Paradox where he addresses the mixed mood phenomena. You can read the whole article here. GJ's experience is from the other side, the caregivers side.
I hope this helps. I have been reading alot of posts here, but many by you. I am in awe of your strength in the face of adversity and how in many times when your own life seems bleak, you talk of working with friends to help them through their own bad times. It says alot about you.
Take care and know there is always someone out there thinking about you and hoping you are having a level day!
Vicki M
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