Information and opinions on Bipolar from ctrygirl at BipolarConnect.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744 http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744 http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/32914/choice-challenge Sat, 05 Jul 2008 11:17:34 -0400 ctrygirl The road i travel may not be the one you'd choose, for we are all so different in our moods, one day i take to the left lane ahead, the next to the right instead, the choice sometimes doesn't seem mine, but a voice i hear so clearly sometimes, others don't hear it or at least they claim, and that makes me feel rather insane, yet i know the voices aren't really there, how weird to know it, hear it: yet unable to share, what the voice... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/32914/choice-challenge http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/30999/input Mon, 16 Jun 2008 10:49:28 -0400 ctrygirl It has been a while since I posted and there is a reason for that.... seems that my medications began to wane somewhat and not be as affective as they were for quite a while ...on Lamictal and abilify and klonopin and zoloft which he stopped for my mania is OUT THE ROOF<  and trazadone....well, hallucinations escalated to point ofseeing a mans face MELTING in front of me then looked down to avoid seeing it and then BOOM not like that... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/30999/input http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/27494/don Sat, 10 May 2008 09:44:36 -0400 ctrygirl I really don't know how else to get these feelings out it seems but to turn to my support group on here.  Don't know if it is the nature of the beast i hold within or what is going on but I have so noticed lately a pulling away of others, those that were so suppose to love me unconditionally, and those that one would think would WANT to be there for you. AND I have done nothing at all to deserve this no outburst on them, no... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/27494/don http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/26980/don Mon, 05 May 2008 07:24:45 -0400 ctrygirl   I Don't Know Why   I don't know why The sky can seem so blue like the open seas And then turn quickly thunderous to me.   I don't know why, The voices in my head refuse to be heard And yet the importance of their words, Are so profound, so deeply ingrained In the meanings of the world, yet it seems insane.   I don't know why The things that I see, Are only visible to me, (Or at least in my general audience... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/26980/don http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/26102/reason-disturbing Sat, 26 Apr 2008 12:21:28 -0400 ctrygirl http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/brain_depression_dc;_ylt=AkxvGaBxKOGRB5URfo_k8UgDW7oF   this talks of a pacemaker for theBRAIN>>>>YEP The BRAIN>>>.for depression and ocd...uhm for some reason i got really bad vibes from this "experiemental method" an uhm think i'll stick with my ocd and depression instead of being what i feel is a guinea pig...geez....but it does say something about how the HEART AND MIND are... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/26102/reason-disturbing http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/26101/wondering Sat, 26 Apr 2008 11:16:39 -0400 ctrygirl I have been diagnosed with having lesions in corona radiata area of my brain since 2003 i have gone from 2 to 7 lesions......i wrote and discussed with one of the most knowledgeable experts JOHN on here about this and I can't help but ask if anyone else out there  with bp has lesions and what/where ....now don't want to get to personal....just wondering if lesions can affect bp and sooo curious for as you know too many theories and not... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/26101/wondering http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/24921/creativity-contest Fri, 11 Apr 2008 08:33:00 -0400 ctrygirl made with colored pencils and charcoal...living the lightning  I couldnt get this to take the scanned version so had to do a photo of the drawing...hope this is sufficient....did in full light and regular.....hope details show up....ctrygirl 2008 http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/24921/creativity-contest http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/24329/choose-wisely Sat, 05 Apr 2008 10:46:00 -0400 ctrygirl Use NO Excuse; Choose Your Actions Wisely My MindMy mind it swirls and twirls,And cartwheels and whirlsOver the hurdles into the shell,Up to the mountains and into the dalesSearching for ever, for a place to beSearching deeply inside meTo my mind, to my soulTo my spirit withinNot knowing what I'll find in the end,But I march ever onward,Head held high,Mask tightly wound,Ready to fly.......But where will I go?I have yet to figure that... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/24329/choose-wisely http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/23774/details Tue, 01 Apr 2008 07:48:00 -0400 ctrygirl I feel BP's pick up on and notice things that others often overlook or just are too busy in their hustling world to notice, this pic was taken in a civil war cemetary just minutes from my home, some of the graves were disturbed and ROBBED!! (how pitiful) and this precious creature was standing guard it seemed for the web spanned 2 civil war soldier's graves that were meagerly marked and adjacent to the ones robbed......just a bp view of... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/23774/details http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/23772/creativity-contest Tue, 01 Apr 2008 07:33:00 -0400 ctrygirl Uncharted Territoryby Ctry Girl 2008  Oh step Lightly my FriendStep lightly my friend, upon this mind so confused...Do not trespass the areas that you simply chooseBut instead heed the warning....know the limit tooFor you never know what will await you.. Wild creatures may not even suffice to explain,What lies before you should you leave the lane,That has clearly been marked for you...However confusing it may seem to do...Follow... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/1744/23772/creativity-contest