What am I doing now that I didn't do in 2007:

last night I went to a AA dance and I didn't dance because of my Osetorithies in my Hip and by back. I walked around and talked to people that is progress for me and I also talked to a few ladies there before I would just sit and not say anything. It was my 2 year Birthday in AA. My roommate Melissa gave me my two year medallion and said some very nice things about me, She said that she has seen me go through a lot in the last 7 months and I am a strong Man. She thanked me for being there when she need ed help we meet at a meeting and she didn't have anyplace to go I took her in I have a extra room in my apartment and she moved in I feed her and took care of her until she could get her CNA licence and work again. She also said that I didn't ask for anything in return. Most guys would have. I treated her very well like a sister and What I did get back was Love caring and the Best friend I ever had. That's worth more to me than anything else. I am registering for a non credit community education course in digital Photography I want a hobby that I can do and I want to meet a lady there who can share an interest and maybe want to go do some photo shoots together and get to know someone their as a friend maybe more, No I do not have a girlfriend and I thought taking a class would be a good way to meet other women besides the ones in AA I need to make myself more available to other women if I am going to meet someone new. thew other thing that i am working on Is meeting with a therapist and working on some of the issues that have kept me out of any type of interpersonal relationships. And that is another one of my Goals and Dreams of the New Year is to develop new friendships and dating with new women in my life But Melissa will still and always be My very best friend No matter how many girlfriends I have in the next year one or 20 new ones. I know who I really trust right now and that's not going to change that quick I trust my Case Manager Karen and My best friend Melissa That's it for now maybe I will make more friends and be able to trust them too with this new therapy I am going to do this nest year. I am excited about these new things but I am still deal with the reality of the pain of the Osteoarthritis in my hips and my back. And an example of that was last night I did walk around but then I sat down because I was in pain but I sat near some people I knew and I talked to them Then I gave them a hug and went home there were no big highlight to post here I just dont really know what to do in a given situation. After the surgery I did lose some memory about some things and my personality went through a change I dont understand. When I talked to my case manager about it she said that certain things I would have to accept abut my memory on my retention of information and other things but I think with therapy I can get past these reasons on why I dont know or is it that I'm afraid to do the nest thing like ask someone out on a date who I dont know?? but maybe I have seen at meetings and talked to. I dont want to continue this cycle of being stuck where I am and not dating or making new friendships. That's about all the changes I want to make in 2008 its  NEW year and a new life for me I hope to do I'm sure I will add more as the year goes on.

Frank Duffey