Plans made and hopes dashed/ every time I make positive plans somethig comes up

I had made some positive palns for the new year:

• I had looked at Community education class to take this month
• I checked into Volenteering
• I checked into a singles group
• I signed up for Meetup

I dont have the money for the class and that does not even include the gas to and from there. I am very much disapointed that I cant do this the class is not until 1/24/2008 I do not get a check until theb 3rd of Feb. I dont see how I can pay 49.00 and have 200.00 to live on for the whole month. This was suppossed to be something I had to look forward to and Now I dont even know what to do.

I did sign up for the Gainsville Singles Group on Yahoo.com

I also got information on other groups like a dance that meets once a week.

But more than anything else I wanted to do the course They only meet once a month I think but it would give me something to look foward to a nd somewhere for me to meet other people.

Right now AA is the only place I have to meet people face to face. and I havent done so well with that. I have not been going that much Because to tell the truth I dont like groups I have been around AA almost 20 years and I only have 2 years I really didnt have any problems making friends before I had my Brain Injury from the surgey. Why does it always have to be groups I do bettewr one on one talking to someone without a lot of noise and distractions. I dont know what has changed but maybe I have just got tried of the choices.The VA group I am in is very good but I dont really want to go there more than once a week. My case manager asked me if I was going last week and I didnt go I dant want to go tomorrow. They go on a walk and then gon to a noon meeting and then eat at 1 pm. I havent been eating much some times only once a day, or not at all either im to upset like today or I just dont care I thought I was moving in a positive direction but now I feel like Im slipping back ointo depression that I dont have anything to look forward to and I dont care anything about doing a park walk thing or hanging around with a bunch of guys from the group I dont want to feel like I am forced to do what I dont have any interst in I will go on tuesday the regular group day but thats it. Tammie yold me about the yoga class and I hjave no interst in doing Yoga with chronic pain and Osteoarthritis in my hip and back same for the hikes. I will find something on my own or I will just sit home I dont