From my own experieance yes I have been treated different when I was in the regular VA detox and then the SATT program The VA does A great job of taking care of me I was moved from the SATT program just due to the fact that I could not really carry on a converstation with someone with pout interrupting I still do sometimes but I let the person finish firstbefore I talk and that didnt have anything to do with Substance Abuse but rather The Brain Tumor Surgery that I had in June 2003 I have continued to have problems from the surgery in relationships and forming new friendships and just now I am starting to reach out and talk to other females besides my roommate and best friend I love her a lot but she is right I do need someone to call and talk to during the day and when Im not doing anything. I want to be happy and I hope I will have a chance to be in a close relationship with someone who can give me more than just friendship I need teh closeness of a women and her touch and kiss and careass, Just those thing most people who are in and out of a reationship take for grantred Well yes even the sex to but I want to closeness more so and the feeling that someone else loves me more than justb a friend and thinks I am handsome and is attractted to me not some one else.

 I have not felt wanted for a very long time, and with the Bi Polar disorder and the Arthritis in my hip and my back it is very painfull to try and get out over 2 or 3 hours at a time before I need to go home. So I havent dated yet and I have been divored for over 4 years, I know its not good to sit hhere day after day and just wait but sometimes I cant do anythingn else right now, So I do the best that I can with what I have to work with today not like before I had the surgery I am different now and theres no going back to the way I was then In some ways thats better I am living on my own OI am not homelessn I have an apartment and a car so Im not doing bad I have made a lot of progress biut there is still more to do Now and I am going to work with a therepest at the VA when they assign me one, and I will continue to see my case manager at the VA she has done mircles with me and she is an amazing women I think. and getting to the topic of how people are treated differently when I was going to the Triangle Club here last year I tried to find a sponser while I was there and I never could because people knew that I had brain Tumor Surgery and that I was Bi Polar so they didntb want to deal with that. And so I did not make alot of friends down there last year I didnt have acar and I would callldown there for  rides and almost all the time i couldnt get a ride or I got one there and then had to walk back home a long wayb so I got a little resentmenbt aboutb that and I started going to NA meetings for the last 9 months or so and I didnt go back down there until I realized taht I did belong there and not NA I havent done any street drugs in 20 years and So if I stay on the right track maybe 2008 can be a better year than 2007 was anyway I will keep everyone posted as to whats going on I have a Sleep Study to be done the 27th of Jan thsi month I just go in overnight and come home at 7am. My Nero doctor ordered the exam.

FRANK DUFFEY