What I'm did this morning to straighten out my Check with Social Security My SSDI check they were planing to take more Medicare out of my check the state had stopped paying my Medicare check so I went into the local office here and canceled my medicare which I dont need because I am a Veteran and I have free medical care Thru the VA Hospital.
I had planed to get out more and start dating but My health has forced me to be more realistic about what I can do right now and what is feasible for me to do at the time. I can Plan and have the best plans this is what I have been working on:
!.) Join a dating or social network, What I did was join a local Yahoo Singles Group:Post message: Gville-Singles@yahoogroups.com
Subscribe: Gville-Singles-subscribe@yahoogroups.com
Unsubscribe: Gville-Singles-unsubscribe@yahoogroups.com
Moderate: Gville-Singles-owner@yahoogroups.com
URL: http://...com/53mdc
That is the information for the group here.
2.)Check on Community Non Credit courses at Santa Fe Community College I did check into the classes and they were only 50.00 but I didnt have the extra 50.00 this month they teach the class for Digital Photography every 5 weeks and I may sign up for more than one class once My SSDI checks are straightened out.
3.)Try and get one phone number of one female who is in recovery here to call and possibility ask out just someone to call and maybe she can come over and visit if I cant get out or help me with the grocery store. Just have someone who wants to be around me and not judge me for having a brain injury from the Brain tumor surgery I had in 2003 I also had a stroke before he surgery an TMI they called it, So I am still recovering from the brain injury now and I am going to be assigned a therapist at the VA to help me deal with the disability and also PTSD issues relating to my past marriage and Rape that happened to me by 3 men. I am still dealing with trust issues and I that I mess up the relationships before they have a chance to start. I would love to have someone to hold just to tell me its going to be all right and I need to hold on to her and have faith that things will work out OK. 
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There aremore things which I am tring to overcome but last nigh I slept all day on wednesday and I was up all last night but I am not tired I was talking to my roommate Melissa and she said that she missed me because I was asleep I said to myself someone missed me and cares enoutgh to tell me I must nopt be as bad sa I thught but I know ske loves me in a good way not as a boyfriend but as a best friend who I would do anything for. I had to go through my bills and come up with a budget, but it seemns that an unsuppesting expense comes up my cell Phone bill was 148.00 It has always been 88.00 a month that kind of thing is why I cant go to fuctions with the singles groups because I have to have food here and my own expenses which I have mnot had anending money of my own for almost 3 mothes now but It is just I do all this work to make plans then I sit here at home with a full tanlk of gas an no money to go qanywhere or meet new women. I had to take a break on the AA meeting I just dont like groups unless they small I will talk but I tell them what they want to hear out of that daymn book and not my feelings or whats bothering me the just say the awnser is in the book I have heard that crap for 20 years nowl And now after the Brain tumor surgery I can read it but it desnt matter because I cant remember anything that I have read. I went to see the VA Nero Doctor and she was very nice and I told her about my fustrations, And she said that it was not my fault that I can not remember things it is just the reasult of the tumor being removed and My case manager told me that I would not recover from some of the things like this. She gave me a word Association test. In which she would tell me 4 word then afyter we ta;lked 30 min later she asked me what the words were and I told her one of them apple. And I tol her I had the test before ao I remembered one word then sjhe qasked me did I remember what else she said and I ytpold her no I didnt recall any of the converstation at all. So Now you see why One On One works better for me than groups She asked me if I liked groups and I told her to be honest no I did not like groups but I do gon to AA somewtimes I have not been in over a week, The doctor incresded my medication about a week ago so m still getting used to it I feel really tired of awake like I am now after sleeping all day yesterday all day. Thats it for now Frank
