Can not Keep a job

you've spoken a great deal about meds and the doc

you've not mentioned at all.... therapy and a therapist

i'm not a psychiatrist, therapist, nurse, or anything else of importance... only someone with Bipolar so... what I got to say may not mean 2 squats and well.. that's okay

but it is my personal opinion that

meds are to treat the physical symptoms the disorder manifests to cause dysfunction

therapy treats the disorder(s), including Personality Disorders because many (not all) with Bipolar also have Personality Disorders mixed within, so that the manifestations  - when they do occur, cause they will - perhaps will not be quite so dysfunctioning or destructive

you did not mention seeing and/or going to a tdoc/therapist

if you are not seeing a therapist for therapy... it is a sorta kinda option for which is up to the individual as to whether to do or not

i do hear you though on the job loss issues due to the illness and well, wondering if this is all life really is or will be?  I get that quite a lot when I'm in a serious depressive cycle.  wishing you peace :)

I am so sorry to hear of your troubles. It actually brings tears to my eyes to know that other human beings are out there going through the same emotions that I am. Bipolar is a frustrating mess, I know that with proper medication it can get easier, but please dont let yourself believe that the world does not need you. I know how easy it is to let the depression take control of the wheel and do the driving, at times it even feels good to feel bad... I have the same issue with always thinking people are after me, there are days and weeks when I cannot leave my front porch because I think that "They" will get me. The most annoying part of the entire situation is I know that there is no one out to get me, yet my brain just runs on whatever paranoia it wants. I hope that you find some peace and rest, I know it can be exhausting.

Hey i've been fired from 4 jobs and quit 3 have you ever applied for disability i'm on it because i'm bipolar and suffer panic attacks. But don't give up i know the mood swings will drive people crazy but it's not your fault and it seems your wife understands. I've been married 3 times but my present wife if she see's me getting ina mood will sit and talk to me which gets it off my mind. But try the disability route don't be ashamed i paid taxes for 3o years and you may get some better help. And now it's getting on towards winter and i'll be not wanting to leave the house and usually have to force myself to go out. But don't do anything to hurt yourself or your family just try and control your moods. Hope this helps but try to look postive i've been knocked on my ass a few times myself but it made me look for ways to make things better.