Hi Legna,
It sounds like you are a very lucky woman who has someone in your life that cares very much.
Many times when I was depressed or manic I would sometimes beg my husband not to go to work...I needed him close - I was a "clinger" in the broadest terms.
As for the lack of sleep, once you take care of sleep deprivation by making an appointment with your doctor, life will get better. Lots of bipolars know how important it is to regulate your sleep. It can make all the difference in your conceptions of life in general.
your husband expressed his love for you in such a wonderful way legna, I hope that you had a good holiday season.
Please contact your doctor over the sleep issue....sleep deprivation only makes bp worse and harder to deal with sending our bodies into tailspins....I know for a fact for i too have great sleep problems...but i also recognize the importance of getting it under control. Mine isn't yet either but getting a little better, but i couldn't have done so without the medications and the therapy/coping skills that i have learned and utilize from my therapist.
I think you'll find that a LOT of bps have a sleep disorder of one sort or another....Please get in contact with your doc for the help you need on this, it isn't something you can do on your own. However, getting a pattern of sleep/wake times ...like turn off the tv at certain hour, or calming activities before bed, along with a warm cup of tea or milk and keeping a schedule even if it seems impossible at first seems to help a little, or it has with me.
I use yoga to stretch and relax in the evenings and then herbal tea to settle my mind and body afterwards and no television or fluorescent lighting int he bedroom....esp. after a certain hour and it seems to help some...but truly my medications and therapy coping skills like imagery and journaling before trying to rest my mind seem to help ME...however we are all different in our approaches to dealing/healing so please talk to your doctor and see what he can offer you in terms of relief...for without sleep we can really get manic or deeply depressed and ALL our symptoms intensify for sure....so take care friend....and know that YES you are loved here....no doubt about it...hope some of my ideas help. but i can't stress enough how important to contact your physician for the sleep problems, they know what your on already and what will react/help......let us know how you do dear...
sincerely
ctrygirl
That is so sweet of him. You are very lucky to have someone so supportive.
Probably time for a tiny med change to help you sleep.
Merry Christmas!