Information and opinions on Bipolar from freeda at BipolarConnect.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537 http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537 http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/32957/delete-account Sat, 05 Jul 2008 22:01:32 -0400 freeda I'm about to go back to court with my ex-husband and I don't want this stuff "out there", if you know what I mean.  Can someone point me to how to delete this account? http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/32957/delete-account http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/32803/trigger-husband Thu, 03 Jul 2008 20:47:59 -0400 freeda I swear he makes me insane like no one else on the planet.  I hate him.  I hate him I hate him I hate him.  Why can't he just be NORMAL?  Why does everything have to be this big dramatic ghetto Jerry Springer spectacle?   I'm glad I finally got to talk to my 13 year old daughter after he's had her 3 weeks with no contact.  I do not appreciate his ex-wife grabbing the phone and screaming that I'm "stealing" from... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/32803/trigger-husband http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/32709/back-job-hunt Thu, 03 Jul 2008 00:27:54 -0400 freeda Today I got a call from an agency about a job that sounds perfect for me.  In interviews, I have a tendency to just word-vomit.  I am going through the normal interview routine in my head, and specifically spelling out for myself what it is okay to say, and what isn't.  It's so stressful!   I've been looking for a long time, and the economy here in Michigan sucks - 8 1/2 percent unemployment!  But more than that, more... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/32709/back-job-hunt http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/31892/eval Tue, 24 Jun 2008 19:08:10 -0400 freeda It is long!!  I suppose that's good, considering I was there 4 hours or so.  I also received a several page personality profile last week.  Says a lot of things I disagree with, got a couple of factual things wrong.  But the essence of it is about what I thought it would be.  For those who are interested in the process, I'll touch on the categories that were addressed in the evaluation:   Blah blah blah... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/31892/eval http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/31211/dysfunction Wed, 18 Jun 2008 01:23:17 -0400 freeda Recap: I'm not medicated and it's a recent diagnosis.  I'm on a down cycle.   I am being pretty aware of what I'm feeling, and trying to identify it objectively and chart it to review with my care team.  One thing I'm noticing is that, when I'm in a down cycle like now, I seem to have touches of sensory integration problems that I don't experience in my up cycles.    For example, having anything on me bothers... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/31211/dysfunction http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/30849/starting-downward Fri, 13 Jun 2008 21:23:37 -0400 freeda I know why - I have several trigger issues going on now... my ex-husband being a pain, school stress (I should totally be writing a 3 thousand word paper right now), and financial pressure.  My daughter is leaving for 3 weeks.  I just got a rejection for a job today, and I also spent several hours trying to un-screw my checking account.   I can feel it coming on.  But I don't really think there's a damn thing I can do about... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/30849/starting-downward http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/30374/evaluation Mon, 09 Jun 2008 14:30:02 -0400 freeda Well, it was draining.  First you go do a computer program, and it asks you things like "out of the last 14 days, how many days did you have a problem going to sleep?"  But it was pretty fast.    Next was the intake nurse.  She's a RN that has special training.  After that, she goes and discusses you with the doctor.  Then you go sit with the RN and the doctor.   All of it was talking. No scans or... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/30374/evaluation http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/28457/told-mom-diagnosis Wed, 21 May 2008 00:38:24 -0400 freeda I had thought about not telling her, but ... she's my mom.  You know?  And she's not the kind of mom I only see at Christmas.  We hang out at least a few times a month.    I didn't say a WORD about thinking that she has it too.  Just addressed my diagnosis, some of the reasons/symptoms, and told her about my upcoming comprehensive workup at the University.   I'm glad it's over with.  http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/28457/told-mom-diagnosis http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/27804/things-afraid Wed, 14 May 2008 02:23:18 -0400 freeda I was just diagnosed a few weeks ago.  And I think this is a good place to voice my fears.   I'm afraid that the side effects of medication will be worse than my symptoms (which are mostly hypomanic and not too annoying). I'm afraid my life will become about managing this condition.  I feel stupid when I give my husband a "daily update" on my emotional state... admittedly it's not too much more boring than his work... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/22537/27804/things-afraid