I'm 29 years old and after a suicide attempt and various anti anxiety/ depression medication trials and mood charts I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I'm not exactly sure how to deal with this. I didnt think anything was wrong with me other than crazy mood swings and suicidal thoughts. Any help on how to deal with this?


You're probably shell-shocked. But at least you can put a name to it, some relief. The community on this website is very understanding, compassionate and experienced.
There was a share-post a few months back of the 10 things you would tell someone who was recently diagnosed. I can't find it anymore.
Meds: you have to be patient with them. Everything always take 2 weeks to kick in. And meds react differently in different people. So, it's trial and error to get the right balance for you. A lot of meds, you have to take the description with a grain of salt. Bipolar uses drugs in different ways than they were intended. Abilify i think is referred to as an anti-psychotic, but for bipolar is a mood stabalizer.
Keep taking meds even if you are feeling better. After a year of my diagnosis, i went off the meds & a few months later wound up in the hospital.
Sleep: It's very important that you get good sleep each night. I use trazadone for sleep. Also clonopin can be used.
Discipline: sleep the same each night. This way you know if you're off. Monitor food intake. Some drugs are said to cause weight gain, but I've found that I just need to be extra careful about food intake. Be consistent.
Therapist: Can be very helpful. Shop around for a good one. They're great - they're you're secret weapon. Get someone that has bipolar patients. They see patients and can share their tricks for dealing with the illness. I got a referral to a hyptmotist that can help with sleep. I also get help in how to deal with the psychiatrist.
Other websites: I've found drugs.com to be very helpful to look up meds and their interaction with other meds.
Hang in there,
C