When an event has a profound effect on my life I tend to do a lot of research. Sometimes it span many years. The man I am in Love with is bipolar. He is not able to communicate with me and prefers that I not contact him. I breaks my heart that he is feeling this dis-ease. Yea, my heart is broken because he does not want to have anything to do with me...I'm human...I'm almost over that (not the humaness). Because of my love for him I wish there was something I could do to help. Barack Obama says that when we fail to help we diminish ourselves. I want to help and can't and I feel diminished.