Who we've become:

One of my nicknames given to me by my friends was "Crazy" that was fun Lex, or "Omnigirl" because I'd because I could get just about anyone of any orientation to at least make out.  They didn't know what do to with "shut in Lex".  Obviously I didn't know then what I know now.  Being aware that I have this BP layer involved, it's like a lens that adds some clairity to past and current behavior.  But that being said I try to not let BP disorder take center stage in every interaction, although you didn't say it, but don't you feel like you can hear them thinking it?  Or am I being paranoid?

I talk too much and I can't stop. I ask too many questions too.  I'm glad to hear about you. I can understand why I'm avoided so much and see why now, I just didn't consider this before.  Thank you for helping me see this.  I thought I knew it all since I've been diagnosed and been on medication for twenty-four years. Hearing a fresh idea stimulates my own (sometimes? in error) awareness. Is this true for you?

While in one of my early therapy sessions I, too, learned I was not the person I thought I was.  That was nearly 30 years ago.  I was led to a new understanding though the Briggs-Meyers Type Indicator, a personality test that is used in business or anywhere there is a need to tap into talents and quirks

 

I discovered that I was an ENFP, and from that point on I revelled in respect for the person I am.  To give you just a general idea:  I am more extrovert than otherwise.....I love people but I need perhaps more time than some to "refuel."  That's the "E."  I am highly intuitive and that's the "N."  I, like most bipolars, am a feeling type and need to balance that out with thinking.  "F" is for me who feels your pain or feels the joy.....and, yes, feels depressed and moody. I am sometimes over the top.

 

You get the idea.  ....though highly simplified.  We are the lovers of life, and the angry

catalysts for change.  We are the mourners of loss, and the tragic mask of drama (our own.) We are the President of the country (Lincoln, Teddy Roosevelt).  We are the artists, the writers, the actors.  We are the Kay Redfield Jamison's who are scientists and authors.  We are unique, and without our contribution the world would be drab and empty.

 

Keep working on your bipolar-self, but while you are doing it........CELEBRATE yourself!!

Amen and thanks for sharing!   I'm over medicated and can't chat well today.  I'm going back to the dose I was on last week. dbletlk 1