Spent last week at my mom's for the holiday. Very difficult to enjoy...and usually I love it so much. Had 2 nights where I couldn't sleep and one major crying episode.
Now am back at work; supposed to work 6 hour days this week. Am just wrapping up hour #5 and am sitting at my desk crying.
Really starting to wonder if it's all worth it if this is how it's going to be.
It wll always get better. It always does. It's okay... you are not alone with these feelings and the crying. I know I haven't walked a mile in your shoes... but, life goes on, and life always gets better. AND sometime worse. Soak it up and breath it in because I believe that when you are gone... you're gone, gone. Keep your chin up you are stronger than you think or give yourself credit for. You can always write my silly *** for support. You are human... humans cry... humans sometimes have bipolar. I woman I'm living with is going through crying spells now and depression.... I tell here because it's true... life always gets better. Dry your eyes... you are alive even though you feel like you are going through hell. I'm here to talk to... or ignor. 
smokefan (smoke is a race car drivers nick name by the way).
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Is what worth it?
If you're talking about life, then that question cannot be answered since we don't know what happens without it.
We don't even know if it's even possible to really exixst without it in one form or another.
Just remember that we really have it made now a days. Peolpe don't even have toilet paper in most countries.
I know that work sucks when you're down.
what do you do
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yep, at least I have TP! :o)
I train human resources employees for a major auto insurer. Big company = lots of sick leave and medical benefits, so I should be thankful. I know. But some days...