I'm just disappointed in myself for already breaking my New Year's resolutions. I'm not going to give up or anything like that. Gonna have to do the baby step thing. I just wanted to control my bipolar this year, starting with the ever important daily routine. Sleeping the same hours, eating 3 meals and exercising. I rebelled and didn't eat yesterday and didn't exercise. Plus I woke up 2 hours early. I guess change really scares me. I did pray for strength and willingness to change. I've been a passive bystander for 25 or so years, going wherever my bipolar lead me. So my expectation of changing over-night is a teeny weeny bit unrealistic. I just needed to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading (or not). Ruthie. 
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