Tuesday, January 15, 2008
I'm experiencing a totally new experience. I transitioned from my hypomania cycle to my depression cycle like my normal Bipolar II experience on Sat. Late Sunday am when I got up, I was too depressed to even make a pot of coffee and I love coffee. My sister called and begged me to bring her something to eat at the bar where she works before the football game. We could watch NY beat the Cowboys. I could leave anytime I wanted, even just drop off the food. (Bless her heart she wanted to get me out of the apt.) Fighting to reluctantly leave the apt. I spied my pool cue, grabbed it thinking maybe I could play if the noise (trigger) at the bar was too much for me. The pool room is separate and much quieter. I don't know how many games I played plus watched parts of the game with other yelling (trigger) people. Soon the game was over, and I tended bar while my sister played. That got a bit stressful. When Monday came, I didn't feel half bad. Now it's Tues. and I feel pretty darn good. I think the activity on Sunday headed off a depression cycle? I don't know what to think, I feel pretty "normal" when I normally should be depressed!
Hi Stardust...try not to question a good thing. Just count your blessings and hope the good feelings will continue. I know I couldn't handle tending bar when feeling "a little off" but whatever it takes to break the depression a little is a good thing. Maybe it's simply getting out of the house when you're down. Bless your sister. Today I went out and helped a friend who has no car to get around. Made me feel better just to get out and help someone a little. May tomorrow be an even better day, for both of us. Take care.......Judy