Waiting for Depression to Lift

Hi Stardust,

You are doing all the right things to get through your depression minute by minute. That's all you can do until you get back to the doc. I know what that is like when every minute seems like an hour and every hour like a day.  Little steps but get back to the doc soon as HM said above.Your new medication shouldn't be pushing you into depression. Thinking of you. R

Dear Sturdust,

first of all, if for now you must be on medication, I would talk carefully to my doctor and do some research as well. The medication that you take is very nusty to say the least and repressing hypomania all together, and this is what these medications do, is not really good. in my opinion.

I have tried nearly all medication available for bipolar over the years and, in my experience, the only good drug for me was Epilum Or Sodium Valporate also known as Valpro.

This medication is mostly used for epilepsy but it was found very effective in the control of bipolar leaving room for mild hypomania and very little or no depression. This is an ideal state of being. Also, because this drug is old it has been around for a while and there is vast informatiion including the fact that it has very few sides effects provided that the dose in not too high. Usually one starts with 500mg and it can be increased up to 1500mg though I did find 1000mg enough for me. What is good about this drug is that it does not kill your personality particularly some mild hypomania remains. The depression lifts and there are few side effects. If this drug is not suitable for you, according to your doctor, then you should look for a similer one. Mixing tablets is not good and I would not take two varieties for the bipolar. My wife has bipolar I and has been on Epilum for years now. She is reasonably well. It is a good drug and I do not understand why it is not used more for bipolar. It certainly should be. But as you can imagine there is the tendency to push new drugs all of the time.

It is good that you keep a positive outlook on your near future. But I feel that this new depression with feelings of being lonley may be due to these drugs that you are on.

Alfredo 

Hello Stardust,

I hope today finds you feeling  better....I too take Abilify and the first week or so it took me a while to adjust to the medication, so perhaps it is that that is making you feel so lonely/depressed still....I know that i was like geez, the bathroom is ALLLLLLLL the way in there and eating was a great effort...but the alternative (for i too am a VERY RAPID MOOD and MIXED STAGE BP) is not good either although personally i LOVE the mania, i know it isnt' good and is very near the edge when Hypo

.....so hang tough honey, give it time to work, but still discuss with doc, i know mine told me it could be 2 to 3 weeks before I adjusted completely and he was right and it DOES help a LOT , i even have tactiles and delusions and other wonderful things that this condition offers us (geez) but anyway, it really really helped me a LOT LOT....so talk to him and see the duration it should "kick in" and take over controlling the rapid mood swings.....

but in the meantime girl, you just share and vent and come on back here for support for we are ALL here for you you know...always....

I know some things that helped me was MUSIC and journaling (although even the pen felt heavy in my hand it sure released a lot out of my mind) and sketching and really the sunshine (when it was around ....but it's on its way honey hold tight)

.......but Enya and uplifting music and relaxing music reallly reaches me a lot lot lot and photography of just normal things that in that "state" meant something to me or that i saw more to than others did.....so take a few days girl, relax and let it take its course and keep your support group close by....know that and  i know this  doesn't always help...but "this too shall pass"......and it will.....abilify really helps me.....may not others and you're right what helps one might not help another so be careful switching meds too soon, for some it takes a while to kick in per say...

but remember this if you need to talk/vent/express i am here just click my name and send an email......don't have the wisdom or ability to make it go away (for heck i'd be rich and uhm heal thyself tehee) but i am a good listener and know EXACTLY where you are coming through (i could be lonely in crowd, LITERALLY and still have those days at times) , heck just typing the post was probably an effort for you if i recall exactly how i felt when going through those times and STILL DO it doesn't get 'RID" of it completely, don't think they've come up with that one yet, but oh does it help ME anyway...

Well, you hold tight....and know i'm sending positive energy and goodwill and prayers your way for you to relax, get through it, and be back at it in no time.....rest assured we are all here for you ......hold tough girl.....hold on.......

we love ya!
ctrygirl