Stardust

Health Interests

Bipolar,  ADHD,  Depression,  Social Anxiety Disorder,  Panic Attacks,  How to Function when Depression is in Charge,  Mental Health in General

Drugs I am Taking

Lithium,  Adderall,  Levothyroxine,  Geodon,  Carbabazepine,  Effexor XR,  Clonazepam

About Me

Dec. 2007.  I live on the dark side of Bipolar II, as all II's do.  I'm hopeful, however, that things are looking up for me.  I'm learning so much about Bipolar on the internet now.  I learned I need to be an active participant in my recovery, instead of waiting for SOMETHING to MAGICALLY happen.  For the first time I am checking out my meds, I didn't even care before.  I didn't care about ANYTHING, especially myself.  Don't take care of myself or my apt.  I've been forgetting to take my meds, I forget to eat which effects my meds immeasureably (is that even a word?).  So I've had a terrible couple of months, the depressive/manic bouts are so INTENSE.  I'm a rapid cycler.  Looking back, we (me & Drs) figure that I've had this illness my entire life.  I self-medicated heavily for many years starting at age 18, even after I was first diagnosed and on meds.  My sex life was out of control.  Was diagnosed with recurrant, major depression, PTSD and social phobia when I was about 25-30.  Bipolar in my early 40's or so.  ADD when I was 52.  I lost all faith for quite a few years, and I'm getting back in touch with my Spiritual self (thank God!).  Anyway,  I'm learning how other people are surviving with their illnesses.  And learning more about me and what the heck's going on with me...instead of just sitting back and waiting...