I have been married 12 years and love my bipolar husband dearly and know he is my solemate. I am tired and ready to live life for me. He was diagnosed approx 5 years ago and it has never been easy! From mania which he hates that term to severe depression, from never making much money to spending loads more, from loving me and making me feel very special to updating me on all my negative attributes from caring about himself to allowing him self to gain lots of weight, this is alot more than I signed up for. I married fairly young and have been committed completely except in my mind I daydream of a life with less drama! I feel hopeless and excited. We split a year ago because he got off his meds and turned to a horrible person. But he changed, we got back together and have somewhat enjoyed the last year. Then.... he appears to be manic again. Of course this has been coming on for awhile but I like to live with my head in the sand! I realized $20,000 later there's a problem! I am so worn and tired and am ready to let go. We have separated again and I want the future to come quickly. I don't want to linger on because I know what needs to happen. I need to let go. No kids but I still have alot invested so it will be tough- sad but ready.
