I'm hitting rock bottom now, my medication does'nt feel like its working. I've been on it for just over a year now. I'm either down their or emotionlless, never happy. What do I do. I don't think my lover understands what I'm going thru, and its unfear to him because I'm rude and nasty and unfear towards him. Guys I think I'm buzy loosing it. How do I get back on track. does anyone know of a good phsyciatrist in Pretoria East.


Look...all you need is a swift kick in the backside. I would start on how I treat people. All you outlandish and inappropriate behavior "because I'm rude and nasty and unfear towards him" is driven by some underlining fear.
I get tired of people wondering why others don't understand what their going through. Look...my wife had two kids, endured childbirth and 9 months with each child lugging them around inside her womb.
I can say I understand childbirth and the 9 months, but until I walk in those shoes (which I am a guy and would be on display somewhere if I did become pregnant),how on earth could I or her really expect to understand how it really felt? I think people that make those comments expect too much from their partner.
Getting back on track...I really don't think finding a new psychiatrist is going to fix it. Sounds like your pretty stable, just in need of addressing the issues around you. You do have the power and control over your life and where you want it to go.
Here is the deal with change...people tend not to change until its less painful to change than stay where their at. If your unhappy with the way things are going....why not change your attitude (being thankful just to have one more day here on earth verses what you think you don't have).
you are partly correct and partly not. I had to learn how to take my own bi-polar inventory (am I just seeing enemies or does that person really not like me) But while a bi-polared diagnosed individual is feeling every one is against them and they are acting out in a rage they believe their own delusions until they can learn to assess their own mania. So I'd like to suggest to you that every bi-polar person interprets their symtoms diffently and cannot always just "change their attitude" if they find themselves in a middle of a somewhat paranoid delusional state.
I just wanted to take the time to say a quick thank you to you. My ex made me into his enemy for no reason and it ruined us. It was exactly how you described. It just makes it so much easier to move on day by day when I hear my own story validated by others. Thank you.