Rediagnosed w/BPD

Borderline Personality Disorder, therapist said I may still have mild BP(diagnosed in 2004)...I only read about this disorder a week or so ago...I knew immediately I had it, so when the therapist said "i think you have BPD" I was relieved cuz my feelings were validated. It jus desturbs me b/c I was 1st diagnosed w/depression(NO anti meds helped), then a psych said no I was BP which made me feel a lil better cuz sure I get depressed but It never affected my daily living. I started cutting myself @17yrs old (confirmed that ppl w/BPD often cut themselves for a quick fix to control whatever emotion they are experiencing that is to intense & they dont know how to deal), they said the Rapid Cycling & Anger Control issue was classic BPD behavior. Apparently, ppl w/BPD ofter fear abandonment due to either being abandoned as a child or not being able to express feelings therefore they never learned to cope correctly w/them. How did a Psych not pick up on this earlier? How many other ppl dont know about BPD and/or are misdiagnosed w/having Bipolar?? B/c to me BPD seems so much easier to deal w/& even totally overcome w/the possibility of no meds b/c Therapy designed for BPD is used to learn how to deal w/stress & your overly-irrational, intense, rapid mood cycling. Trying to find the right combo of drugs to treat Bipolar is a horrible experience, & I read story after story & it seems 3/4 of ppl w/Bipolar cannot find the meds that work. Im still scared I have mild bipolar & will have to do the med game again...its emotionally draining!! I only hope ppl research & research, no what they have & now read this Blog & look up Borderline Personality Disorder just incase b/c BP & BPD often coinside or have the symptoms & its not uncommon 4 ppl to have both. So maybe meds alone arent enough! I just cant imagine how many ppl are out there trying to survive day to day w/either one of these disorders. Its a daily struggle, we often hurt those around us b/c they dont understand what we're going through. Normal ppl would say something like "just breath or meditate"...it not that easy & what really sucks is I know when Im acting irrational but cant turn it off & thats frustrating cuz im not that person, I dont wanna be that person! I start Therapy Feb 2nd & see the Psych Mar 18th to be evaluated for possible meds to clear my brain so I can absorb these techniques they are going to teach me to control the mood swings cuz sometimes my brain feels fuzzy or foggy. Anyone feel that way too? Please read about Borderline Personality Disorder. Knowledge is contagious. And maybe you're not BPD but know someone who is...its not a commonly talked about disorder & why should anyone suffer due to lack of knowledge. Thx so much for all the support, I'll keep you posted on my progress. Anyone w/BPD pls let me know what you go through. Im reading books but its nice to know your not alone or crazy. thank you:)