When I am manic or hypomanic I tend to view myself as capable of anything. I could be a movie star or an NBA coach. A proffesional roller hockey player or a CIA agent. A radio host, a veterinarian, the list goes on and on. Its not always that I think I am these things (although that has happened) usually I just feel that I could become them if I just took the first step. This process usually comes crashing down on me later in the form of a massive depression. So lately I have been having alot of these beleifs and it got me wondering how do I tell the difference between impending mania and my dreams and goals for the future? I want to be optimistic, but I don't want to be running off on some tangent that is unattainable, investing time and money only later to come crashing down. Does any of this make sense? Anyone have a similar experience?
