I haven't posted in a while, I went off my meds and it ended badly. I just started back on Lithium and Lamictal and I really hope it works. I am amazed at how easy it is to get derailed from recovery. I was doing really well for most of the summer and then it all came crashing down again. I felt so good I thought I didn't need them, I was low on cash so it was an easy expense to cut. I figured I was all better and could cope without. It wasn't long until I was drinking, doing drugs, spending money I didn't even have. Staying awake for days and withdrawing from my friends and family all the while trying to figure out a way to end my life. It was so easy to mess up something that took years to fix. So easy. I hope things get better. It's nice to know that there are many others who are dealing with the same stuff.
. I told him he was a tyrant. He smiled & agreed. It is not a good thing to let someone who isn't your spouse know you too well 
on an emotional basis (LOL!). Actually he's a good guy.)
I hope that your meds will kick in soon and you will start to feel better very soon. My heart is with you, as well as my prayers. I too have gone off of my medications and it never turns out well, and I always say I will never do that again but then I do....we have to stop deceiving ourselves. I wish you a lot of love and Peace....Pam