Thursday, February 25, 2010
Is it the disease or is it me? It feels that all I am concerned about is how badly I feel. I forget to ask other's about their lives.
I drink to feel better, when I know I shouldn't. I get angry at my son because he isn't learning math as he should be. I think he spends too much time on the computer and doesn't want to learn. But he also probably wants to escape. Can I blame him? I used to be fun and happy... will this depression ever end?
Dear embarassed,
Sounds to me that you are being consumed by you having bipolar. I know it is overwhelming and at times all we can think about. But you have to try and learn how to be aware of how others are doing. Even though they may not be as nearly as bad off as you. It is a constant battle to deal with being bipolar. I know when I talk to my friends and they talk about their bad day, yes I admit I sometimes think,,, damn at least you don't feel like you want to scream and throw things, and the next minute talk a million miles an hour and just feel plain off. I get it,time and patience with yourself is key. Drinking, try to keep that down to a minimum. I don't know if your on meds, but most meds shouldn't be taken with alcohol, but I know you already know that. Anyways, take it one day at a time and give your son all the love in the world!!! He deserves it. Take care Kristi