I don't know what to do.  I was screamed at by my son's therapist when I tried to hand in a letter to him stating that I would pay for my son's therapy.  "This is a confidentiality issue.  I cannot.  Will not have anything to do with you or this letter. "  I was speechless but saw his point.  I went home and told my son he could turn  it in the following week himself or just give me the bill after it was sent to him and that would be fine.  He told me his therapist canceled their appointment and rescheduled if for the 22nd.  Well, his clinic is closed on the 22nd.  What do drunks do best -lie.  I came unglued.  And have been screaming at him and at his sister for 2 days.  His 25 year old, younger sister has always been verbally abusive to me.  I just couldn't take if even one more second and unloaded on her telling her that every time I talk to her I feel like I have eaten a bowl of garbage.  I don't think this is necesairly my bi-polar kicking in.  I think I've just had it.  Talked to like I am trash by the people in this community because it is a ghetto community.  I told my son if he blew out of his sober living environment I would never help him with anything again.  I don't want to use bi-polar mania as an excuse for bad behavior.  But I think it influences how very amped up I get with my anger.  I go from terse to brutal in about 120 seconds. My son understands that what he did was a deal breaker with me.  But my daughter does not get it.  She thinks she can talk down to me and tell me how to behave and what to think because I am bi-polar and the IP while she's the one with the money.  But then I get so angry really to the point of homicide that I think it must be partly my mania that is to blame.  How do I separate the and why don't I feel sorry about telling her what I do.  Ashamed of being brutal but not ashamed of what I said.