Friday, April 22, 2011
So to bring this all up to date. I am feeling a bit better after increasing the tegretol from 400mg to 600me. The cycling isn't so deep or so frequent. Once in a while I will burst into tears for maybe 5 minutes but then it's over and I wonder what that was all about. But I'm sill sort of depressed. Whnich is unusual for me because I usually run hypomanic. I'm staying up 36 hours today to see if I can shake off this "quasi" depressed state. Took a walk with my son over by his SLE and that was sort of fun. Ill keep you posted, I have and MD apoint with my psychiatrist on Wednesday the 27th of April. See what he has to say.
I'm glad you're feeling better. That you can experience fun with your son is a great sign. Just be careful about your sleep so you don't push yourself into hypomania. It may feel great at first, but you know it will inevitably lead to a crash. And noone wants to go back into the hole at any price, right? Be well.
Hi bobo
Thanks for writing to me. I pretty much hit base line and took a nap. Feel pretty good not hella manic. But this is just a band-aide. Staying awake for 36 hours is not to be a trusted remedy for depression. I know this. I will never be cured of this disease and I know I will be depressed and manic and I will always crash and switch off and on between hypomania and depression. But, for one day I did succeed in controlling the outcome. Thank you for thinking about me.