I've been doing so good these last couple months. But this week I am so down and tired.On Monday I literally slept all day..woke up at 6pm but was still tired remainder of day. Today I slept til 3:30pm. I seem to be tired all the time. And today I was pretty depressed for no reason. I just dont feel like doing anything. I dont want to see or talk to anyone. I havent studied this week. I just so...blah.



I just came through that. I just had to ride it out. My boss kept looking at me funny so I'd deflect it with some sort of question about work. I cried a lot. I mean a lot. Like you it was not over anything. It was triggered by an event (my son coming out of alcohol txmnt center and into a sober living environment )just the change of him being out on his own reminded me of his darker moments and away I slid but his situation wasn't depressing me, I was just depressed. I think, maybe Im wrong, I don't know, that that is the difference between bi-polar depression and uni-polar depression. Bipolar depression can have a trigger but it isn't really over anything. Uni-polar depression in me anyway has a reason, an explanation. But then I am bi-polar II and maybe it's different for me.
Cathryne
Endogenous depression does not have to have any external cause. But the environment/events can certainly exacerbate it. I had terrible depression about age 14-16 but could not put my finger on any cause. It was beyond normal teenage angst.
To the original post: I have been where you are. Always fatigued. Nothing feeling better than just lying in bed, even if I wasn't sleeping. Just thinking. Sometimes about the same thing over and over. It really sucks. In my case I don't think it was just depression -- I think the medications I was taking contributed. After I switched meds, I no longer feel that draining tiredness. The medication that made me tired helped the depression, it really did, but I still felt worn out all the time. Now it is amazing the things I can get done, when I used to schedule nothing more than a couple of tasks a week. Btw, I was first diganosed as bipolar, then later schizophrenic. But I was treated for endogenous depression at age 16. It just slowly seemed to morph into something even more serious.