Week of mania ends in disaster

I am so glad you are okay

You came mighty close....

Cutting isn't good and the fact you hadn't tried before and then suddenly wanted to... was a bad sign.

Anti-depressants, in most folks (not all but most) with Bipolar, can and often do throw folks into mania or a dangerous mixed episode EVEN if they are on a supposed mood stabilizer like Lamictal.

I'm glad you received what sounds like good treatment and have a different doc with a different approach.  Please be careful and call the new pdoc whenever something seems odd, weird, seemingly out of touch, etc...

Be gentle and kind with and to yourself ... coming back from a sucide attempt whether consciously trying or subconsciously not knowing... is a fragile period of transition time that needs to just be handled with gentleness and kindness for a bit.

Your situation sounds all too familiar. I am very glad your are out of the hospital.What they sometimes don't eplain to you is that you might for no reason what so ever have an urge to do something you have never done before.Doctors sometimes try to attibute this to being non compliant, this is not always the case. Your body & mind may not always respond to the medication for whatever reason.Don't give up try not to be to hard on yourself.Sometimes we can't recognizethat we are going in the wrong direction.I have yet to find a doctor, even a psych doctor who din't believe that I did this at lest on some level on purpose , like I some how enjoyed being where I was.You know better & when you know better you do better. God speed 2 u

                                                            Robin

Quite frankly I don't know the answer to that.  You have to answer that for yourself.  I only tried that once....except I just ended up injuring myself; I didn't want to die.

And because of the way everyone made myself feel, I didn't want to do that again.  They were very supportive, but I didn't like to think that they were overprotective!  I also didn't like the stichtes.  Know if I ever feel like that again, I have the scars to remind me to never do that again!

respectfully,

darkangel