Heyla, I don't have any advice to give, just wanted to let you know you are not alone. I've been there. After a few times of throwing things and then having to clean them up when I was feeling better, I manage to not do it anymore (at least not with things that will break!). I'd give a lot to have a speed bag to go at on days like those!
You have a lot going on, and every now and then it is okay to break down and cry and hit your pillow or a punching bag, IMHO. Sometimes, I think, we just need a way to let the pent up emotions out. When I was going through some intensive therapy, I'd do the same thing, and then afterwards I was usually clearheaded enough to think about whatever was going on to cause it and think things through. I was lucky enough to have my DH (at the time boyfriend) be very supportive and willing to listen or let me cry on his shoulder. And it sounds like you've got some good friends who would probably be willing to do the same.
I find that when things happen that I cannot do much about, like the situation with your sister, remembering the Serenty Prayer helps a lot.
Keeping you in my prayers,
Karri28
Heyla, I don't have any advice to give, just wanted to let you know you are not alone. I've been there. After a few times of throwing things and then having to clean them up when I was feeling better, I manage to not do it anymore (at least not with things that will break!). I'd give a lot to have a speed bag to go at on days like those!
You have a lot going on, and every now and then it is okay to break down and cry and hit your pillow or a punching bag, IMHO. Sometimes, I think, we just need a way to let the pent up emotions out. When I was going through some intensive therapy, I'd do the same thing, and then afterwards I was usually clearheaded enough to think about whatever was going on to cause it and think things through. I was lucky enough to have my DH (at the time boyfriend) be very supportive and willing to listen or let me cry on his shoulder. And it sounds like you've got some good friends who would probably be willing to do the same.
I find that when things happen that I cannot do much about, like the situation with your sister, remembering the Serenty Prayer helps a lot.
Keeping you in my prayers,
Karri28