Controlling my Emotions

Its been almost 2 weeks since the incident with my sister. I'm doing better than I was that night but I still cant get ahold of my emotions. Last Sunday was a really bad day. I wont say much because I dont want to hurt any ones feelings.It started out out with me being really tired. I just wanted to be left alone and spend my day in peace. But my loved ones seemed to think there was more to it. I felt like I was trapped, like I was letting everyone down. I became really upset. I needed to vent, or let out my emotions in some other way. I started crying and then I started punching my pillow. I was starting to feel a little better but then I saw a small glass bowl on my dresser. I dont know, I just felt like I had to throw it. Afterwards I felt scared. What had come over me. I havent been this emotional in years. So I called another friend to stay with me. But I was so emotional that I was thinking strait. When she arrived I autonatically started to hate myself. Why did she have to come? I can take care of myself, cant I ?Omg! It was just a crazy day.

I've felt fine since then. But I still feel like I could crack any minute. I think that I need more meds. Maybe a higher dosage of lamictal.  Also I just got out of the hospital about a month ago. That could be part of it too.