I havent been on here in like forever. As noted in a previous post I tend to only write when I'm upset or having problems. But the last couple months I've actually been doing good. I think I'm finally on the right med combo: lamictal and seroquel. I finally found a new psychatrist. I think she's really good, really knows what shes talking about. She's not just about meds, she actually wants to help me. She said shes going to help me recognize the signs of when I may be manic. I also am on a new dosage for my thyroid issues. I'm feeling better there too. Maybe I'll even be able to lose a few pounds. That would be great. My husband has lost 25lbs on his diet. Good for him! But I'm getting tired of him looking in every mirror he passes. And yes I am jealous. You dont have to tell me.  But I am truly happy for him. Plus its for me too since he is always making me go to the gym with him. And now I'm rambling. Point is: I'm happy. Its been a bad year(in the hospital 3 times, 4 if you count the time my therapist baker acted me. yes I ditched her after). But its like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now. And I really feel like I'm going to be ok.