A New Mania

Oh, My Goodness, the evils of our bi-polar. I have been on Lamictal for several years, and made the mistake of going off my meds too. Well, I so totally know what you are talking about . I t is so frustrating when you stop and think about it, when you have that mania, being hypomania, or otherwise. SUPERPERSON HERE WE COME!. I wish I could have written down, all the wonderful ideas that I had in some of my manias, I think I probably would have been very rich. Rather than my world crashing down on me, for a while. I had to pick myself up, and start all over again. But that is alright, I am in a much better place. I will pray for you. And I will be anxious to hear how things are going with you. Take Care, Anita
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I am just coming out of the depression followed by the mania I recently went through. I didn't see it coming. Others did and tried to stop me from spending money and I got so angry with them because I was just spending money "normally". I cut them off, wouldn't answer the phone and went out to spend more. Screw them. It happened when I reduced my Lamictal from 200mg to 150mg on my own because I was between insurance and COBRA and couldn't afford it. The doctor wanted to increase it to 300 mg. But what does HE know. I just can't afford it. After I bought a few Cole Haan Penny Loafers on eBay (they were a good deal) and a couple of purses that I totally forgot I bought, I realized I was there. Then I got real depressed and cut everyone off again and cancelled all my appointments. I got a package today that didn't look like shoes and I couldn't imagine what it could be. It was one of the purses.

I have increased my Lamictal to the level he wanted me at and now shopping isn't fun anymore. Oh well.

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I am new to the BP world. I was dx with BPII in January of this year. I am finally feeling stablized on my meds. Your thoughts about hypomania I found confusing. My dr assures me that I am not BP I. The "hypomanic" episodes are very upsetting to me as they don't necessarily make me in a "feel good" state of mind. I am now learning to understand these different episodes and trying to deal with the ups and downs. I suppose I just wanted to add a note to anyone reading these entries. I have learned and begun to accept alot by much of the information on bipolarconnect.com. I feel so not alone. No, I don't think I have experienced extreme mania like I have read about. I genuinely feel lucky for that and also try and understand what it must be like. On the other hand, hypomanic episodes and mixed episodes and rapid cycling all of which I experience are extremely unpleasant.

We are all in this together and any bits of advice from others is always appreciated by me.

Take Care

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