new to this but is is true

By chuck529 Wednesday, January 02, 2008

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Okay here it goes,

i am a 43 yo single professional guy who by all appearances has it together. the problem is I have had this disease since childhood complicated by the facr I was sexually abused a kid. PTSD. I now see a therapist and a pdoc and I am lamictal which helps with the deprssion I have bee on and off antidepressants since kidhood. I seem to be getting more and more manic to the point this past sat night I was feeling to real good to not stooping sleeping talking emails that did not make sense I felt crazy which scares me oh by the way I bought a rug for my apt that was pricey. I think my doc also wants to put me on ablify or serequl. my pdoc says I am a great actor and ekkp it together better than allot of people. I am scared that it well get worse but I am trying to be more structed not isolate by going to bed at 7 pm and less impulsive.

that is me now

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Rusty

1/ 3/08 1:42am

Do what your doc says. Don't be scared. It's more scary not doing anything and allowing things to get out of control. Remember its not different from having diabetes...and you need insulin. There is no shame in what you have. If there is a disorder, there are treatments. The earlier you get treatment the better the outcome. So be determined to get well. Its great you have already started a "wellness plan" by getting some more sleep. There are some other things you can do go to www.facing us.com recommended by Sue Bergesen on this site. You will find lots of ideas for keeping well. But....go to the pdoc first. Good luck R

chuck529

1/ 3/08 5:34pm

thank you so much

Eric

1/ 3/08 2:56am

Hey Chuck,

My suggestion is to stop using your past as a crutch to explain what and why things are happening to you in the present. Ok…you had a rough childhood but that is in the past and can’t affect you unless you allow it too. You need to deal in the present.

Structure is very important in helping to control the illness which means taking your meds at the same time each day and having a set sleeping pattern of going to bed at a certain time each night.

As to using the illness as an excuse for buying the rug…I don’t buy in to it being the illness because you were fully aware of the cost prior to the purchase and you still wanted it. Does it look nice and fit with the room? If not …take it back for a refund.

Sounds like you are aware of your swings and can only suggest that you be honest with your psychiatrist to have him get you started on a good stabilizer.

Hopeful mom

1/ 3/08 6:54am

Take the meds prescribed by your doctor. You've held it together thus far and you can do what you have to do to feel well again.

chuck529

1/ 3/08 5:33pm

thank you

new to this but is is true

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