Good mOrning, my bp family! >grin<
I have to say I am at a crossroads with risperdal. I don't feel the need to pace back and forth in my cage. I still have energy to get through the day, but I've had a few short naps the last four days. I am getting used to the pain now. I still feel weak in my elbow (of all places, eh?) but I don't hold my chest so much. The growing pains still hit; I just push past it now. And I still can sneak a benny if absolutely necessary. Still unable to stay at a comfortable body temperature. I guess these things won't change? This past week I have stopped to cry... quietly, but cry nonetheless... and with very little to provoke it. I don't know if I'm changing gears or if I am somehow working myself up to it. Suddenly I am remembering something that makes me sad, and it hits me... again. It's the same few sore topics that are continuously bothering me. But no bad thoughts of unpleasantries to myself or others- this is good. My attention span has not returned though. I wonder where I left it?
Hope all is good and going well for you. I picked up a new Saying of the Day:
"Nothing is fool-proof to a talented fool." If nothing else, laugh.
Hi,
Sounds like you have things fairly under control with your meds and how you're doing physically and mentally. YAY!!! I love your postings. It's been very interesting and enlightening to read about your med changes and how you cope mostly with humor. Oh, I know there's plenty of tears and frustration too...there always is! Thank you!!
I have a question though...do you see a therapist, or a clergy person or have a good unbiased friend to help you work through those issues that keep cropping up? If not, maybe that would be a helpful component to your wellness wheel!
My latest motto is 'Be as kind to myself as I am to others'. I can be the nicest, most empathetic, sympathetic, wonderful listener to someone else that's hurting but have noticed that my self talk can stink way deep down. I've been working on that component for over 15 years. Bad habits/brain pathways are tough to change sometimes but with consistent awareness and redirection I know they can! I'm learning to notice body signals and reactions...immediate loss of energy, tears, anger, excitement, etc...and see what was the precipitating thought or feeling. It's usually an unmet expectation. Some possibility that I took hold of too tightly. I'm learning that God is in control. If I let him direct the day, and thank him as we go through the day together, hmmmm...life goes LOTS better!! imagine that.
It's my birthday in 2 days. You can imagine that that brings up all kinds of feelings from past. Especially when so many were 'just another day' or didn't turn out how I envisioned or hoped. The disappointment got shoved behind my 'it's all right' mask. If you shove too many things behind that mask or the 'never let them see you cry' mask...it gets awfully hot, itchy and irritable. And the subsequent fallout is big compared to dealing with things as ya go.
Have a wonderful day and weekend!
Shelly
I'm sorry I missed your birthday. I have no idea where my time has wandered off to. I hope your birthday was well. Sometimes I get by with a little help from my friends. Sometimes I have to help my friends because they don't know how to help me. Then, there are days where we all feel stupid, so we go out for ice cream. Thankfully, there aren't many days like that. Otherwise, the bathroom scales would scream. >wink<