Grr.  One of the problems I am having with bp is I cannot hear.  Or rather, I passed my hearing test with flying colors but it caused some auditory hallucinations.  I have to literally read people's lips and facial expressions nowadays to remotely understand what the conversation is about.  The phone is next to useless to me.  I hear words, but they are garbled and I don't catch on.  Soooo, I do the next best thing; write.  I can email, IM, faxes, postcard- writing works.  AND I can take my time and recheck my work so that I can avoid any unwanted words that may have slipped in due to emotional response. 

With this in mind...

I called my doc a few months ago.  Left a few messages.  No call backs.  Tried a fax or two (well, the same fax two different times) and explained that I couldn't hear and could I please make an appointment soon.  No reply.  Mailed a letter, complete with updates on my mental state, concerns I had about my meds, etc., and still nothing.  Like I don't exist.  For being nonexistant, I sure am irritated and paranoid that my doc is avoiding me.  Sadly, my doc is not a talk-a-lot doc.  I only see my doc a handful of times a year.  I really need a doc to work on my meds AND someone to talk to, especially now. 

Has anyone been in this situation?  Ever feel like Doc made like a banana and split?  What kind of doc do I need that will medicate and meditate with me?  Am I looking for just a psych or is there another lable I need to look into?  Anyone?  Anybody?  Help?