Information and opinions on Bipolar from Purple Flamingo at BipolarConnect.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327 http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327 http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/94661/journal-therapy Thu, 12 Nov 2009 21:10:38 -0500 Purple Flamingo I think I am high.  Very probable.    Hoping to save my marriage, I have become the daily offering on the marital alter.  Not necessarily the sacrifice, just the offer.  Most days I sacrifice.  But it has been really good for me.  The last few weeks I've been trapped in the house with a sprained ankle and crutches, and ocassionally the hurt gets in the way.  Overall, things seem to be in the... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/94661/journal-therapy http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/91468/journal-marital Tue, 20 Oct 2009 09:55:38 -0400 Purple Flamingo My husband has put me under contract.  I have to at least make an attempt, if not make a move, everyday.  He says it is to get me to remember him.  He says I have been so sad for so long and I've missed out on so much personal time with him.  He put it into terms for me to understand just what I have done to him.  If he had done the same to me, ignore me in such a way, I would probably have left him years agon.  He... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/91468/journal-marital http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/91462/embarrassed Tue, 20 Oct 2009 09:24:59 -0400 Purple Flamingo I am sad. Actually, I don't know if I am sad right at this minute.  Yes, I have had crying spells.  Yes, I have gotten over those spells.  No, I can't see if I am still sad.   I don't understand myself.  I like people.  I am sure I do.  But I have avoided one friend because I don't want to be involved in her drama.  A few lost friends have found me, but I have yet to respond to them... and it's been a... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/91462/embarrassed http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/91458/invisible-spiders Tue, 20 Oct 2009 08:51:32 -0400 Purple Flamingo I am sooo tired.  A few weeks ago, I thought I saw a huge spider in the bathroom.  It sounded reasonable; we live in a rural area.  But that, I think, set off some sort of paranoia.  I keep thinking there might be spiders here and there... which may or may not be a big deal, with spiders a-plenty in the countryside.  But NOW for the last few days, I feel tingley-icky crawling on my body.  I am constantly looking for... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/91458/invisible-spiders http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/86984/bipolar-fido Wed, 16 Sep 2009 01:22:00 -0400 Purple Flamingo My family had the flu recently.  It was then that I discovered a few problems that I didn't foresee when I decided to get a dog.  Since we were all sick, we took turns on dog duty.  We'd crawl out the door so the dog could go to the bathroom.  He'd knock us down, charging at us with his tennis ball.  He couldn't understand why he was being rejected when all he wanted was a quick game of fetch.  So, he was couped up... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/86984/bipolar-fido http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/86175/ve-sad-long-sex Thu, 10 Sep 2009 03:14:10 -0400 Purple Flamingo My hubby has complained before that I haven't really responded to life.  I am sad (I am aware of this) and sometimes I am happy in short bursts.  But I am not reacting in a normal fashion to things.  If someone is mad, I'm ok about it.  If I'm angry, I can let it go sooner instead of carrying it around for weeks.  I am indifferent if the bank is empty.  I am ok if the kids do something awesome in school.  I... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/86175/ve-sad-long-sex http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/85668/seasame-purple Sun, 06 Sep 2009 00:37:31 -0400 Purple Flamingo I walked out of my bedroom, went into the kitchen, opened the freezer and stood there.  There was nothing in there that I needed.  So I went back into my room.  Oh yeah, I need somthing.  So I return to the kitchen, stare into the freezer, and ask myself "what did I come in here for?  And why do I think it should be in the freezer?"    I've driven past my exit, and had to back track.  I've lost my car... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/85668/seasame-purple http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/85667/seasame-purple Sun, 06 Sep 2009 00:37:29 -0400 Purple Flamingo I walked out of my bedroom, went into the kitchen, opened the freezer and stood there.  There was nothing in there that I needed.  So I went back into my room.  Oh yeah, I need somthing.  So I return to the kitchen, stare into the freezer, and ask myself "what did I come in here for?  And why do I think it should be in the freezer?"    I've driven past my exit, and had to back track.  I've lost my car... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/85667/seasame-purple http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/85138/weed-eater Wed, 02 Sep 2009 01:28:34 -0400 Purple Flamingo I did it.  I left the house, went to the bank, bought groceries, and made it home without wrecking the car.    But..   I cried at the bank because I hate money.  I cried in the store; prices keep going up and it is getting harder to be poor.  I can't tell you exactly how I made it home.  I don't remember.  I just drove and every now and then, I recongnized where I was and I wasn't home yet. ... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/85138/weed-eater http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/85041/financially-ideas Tue, 01 Sep 2009 09:51:42 -0400 Purple Flamingo I made a sign and put it right above my alarm clock.  It says "getting dressed is the first step to getting better."  Not today.    I am sure it has plenty to do with my menstral cycle and my empty bank account and my husband's illnesses (he's mental, too).  But I can account for my threadbare bank (a teen and a tween at home during summer break) and I can account for my husband and his need for background noise... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/433327/85041/financially-ideas