I just want to thank everyone for writing back to me and giving me encouragement when I really needed it. I love this website becuase everone here understood what I was saying and what I was going through with my bipolar husband.
I finally have some closure because he called me and said that he giving up the apt we had together and he is moving in with his new girlfriend. It hurt soo bad at first. I had a complete breakdown but I actually feel better now. I am not waiting around for him to come back or anything. It made me open my eyes completey and see that I can't help him and he will have to work thru this himself.
I have fought depression my whole life. I was doing better before I met him. Then shortly after we met, I got soo low I thought I was really losing my mind. But I have realized that my depression and his bipolar episodes were a recipe for total disaster for both of us. I am really looking forward to more positive changes in my life. I finally feel like I can move on with my life. I feel the hate fading away.
I feel so lucky to have learned about Bipolar disorder and I want to continue learning more about it. I had barely heard of it until I met him, except for people joking about it. It is soo real and devastating. I wish everyone dealing with it, in one or another, the very best. I pray that there will one day a medicine to totally control this demon that takes over such wonderful peoples lives.
Thanks again to everyone.
If a relationship doesn't work out, people need to realize that it doesn't mean there is something wrong with them.
My daughter dated a boy for a few months. She was "in love". However, she never realized how much this relationship stressed her out.
She was happier before she ever started going out with this boy. She became nervous and snappish with all of us. When he broke up with her, she was devasted. It took quite some time for her to realize that he made her nervous because he built her up to be "perfect" and then showed disappointment in her when she wasn't exactly what he pictured.
She met someone else a few months later and found out what love was. This relationship makes her happy and she can completely be herself. She's been with him for 2 years and is still as happy as she was in the beginning.
Love should make us happy, not depressed. If things don't work out it doesn't mean we're messed up, it simply means it wasn't "quite right" to begin with.
Keep your chin up. You have the monkey off your back now and you can find a truly positive and loving relationship. One that makes you happy instead of depressed.