Finally I got my 1st appointment on Wednesday with my new psychiatrist; she doubled my meds and made another appointment for me next week. I'm so drugged... I had to stop taking Lexotan as she told me to or I would be asleep all day like I did yesterday...
Now I have to wait about 2 weeks to see if these are the right doses to take.
She also spoke to a psychologist and made an appointment 3 days before I go see her so I can have psychological support with him.
So here I go again, drugs and more drugs to keep me going and praying that the body doesn't get harmed by so many chemicals.
One thing I have found out is that the nurse that 1st talk to me for 30 min. Before I could talk to the Pdoc, must thought she was talking to a mental patient with a very weak will power or someone she could do whatever she is used to do with mental patients!
Well, she was very wrong as she found out later when the Pdoc did what I wanted and saw that I might have Bipolar But I'm neither weak nor stupid, so they ended up respecting me as a person and not as an idiot. I'm more lucid and sane that she will ever be so it was great seeing her bent over and not me.
As I said it many times we are not bipolar and we need to have more respect from those who work with mental patients.
Alex
it truly does amaze me the attitude that many in the medical community take when dealing with folks diagnosed with a mental illness
it is usually one of patronization, disrespect, disregard, condesention, and just plain out distasteful
it's as if the person diagnosed with mental illness IS that mental illness, isn't capable of having a thought or a conscious feeling and therefore can be spoken to in a highly disrespectful manner...
then again, on the flip side... many with mental illness give the staff at the pdoc's office a lot of grief, a lot of exasperation, and a lot of aggravation
and that, unfortunately, gets transferred to how patient's are dealt with the further and longer that treatment received from the patients goes on
still, I'm glad your pdoc listened to you
am sorry the med, at the dosage the doc prescribed, laid you out completely yesterday
and hoping the med kicks in and gives you some relief before the next appointment
That nurse got what she deserved... In her believe, the patient has no opinion about the treatment and we have to do what we are told. Well, I guess she learned her lesson because I got to an agreement afterwards with the Pdoc and the poor nurse was not pleased but couldn't say a word. And now I stopped taking most of the Lexotan she prescribed per day because I don't want to be sleepy all day.
I only take the one before I sleep, the other meds are way too high and make me feel sleepy already. My Pdoc said she is very stubborn, and I answered her "so am I" LOL
I'm the one who knows how I feel and how I respond to the meds, not them.
I decide if I want to be awake or asleep during the day, and that's final! I even told the nurse if this doesn't work I'll go back to my 1st Pdoc, expensive or not but he listens to people.
Oh and by the way, he is the director of a hospital for mental patients and they both work there too... hehehehehehehehe.
Respect my authorita!!! I love putting people in their place hehehehehehe, I'm too tough for them ...
Next week on the 16th there me goes again, round 2 LOL
Oh and yes I have an appointment with a psychologist on the 13th so round 2 and 3!!!
I'm starting to enjoy this heheheheheheheh
Thank you Tabby for the support! How is work? Are you ok?
Big hug,
Alex
I think - and it is only my opinion here, wrong or right:
it is that mentality that those with mental illness can not, at any time, perceive their reality in the true sense of what is truly going on and therefore must be told, directed, and handled for their own good and the benefit of others around them.
So, while you say that you are perfectly good with such and such, and may truly be totally lucid and normal - to them you are mentally ill and have no means to judge how you truly and really are.... your perception of your own reality is askew so, here take the pills precisely as we told you, you are mentally ill remember?
It's not that you are against taking the meds or that you are not willing to take the meds... you just don't want to be drugged and zombified during the daylight hours. Or be twitching and jerking, etc... you'd think they'd be willing to work with folks on that... most aren't.
Course, there are those who play around with their meds to the point of just not taking them at all. Then they soar OR they completely crash OR both.
So, the MH folks just get cynical, jaded, and nasty. They just know right off that everyone who walks through the door is going to do the precise same thing. The reality is... most of the patients are just trying to get through the side effects as easily as possible while still taking the damn things.
oh alxv...
I'm glad you found a pdoc who respects you enough to listen and hear you out and is willing to work with and get to know you.
Yes tabby, that was my 1st Pdoc this one put me on 2 Lexotan a day even though the meds already knock me out without it. But it was my 1st appointment with her and although she didn't cared when I told her it was too much Lexotan I will continue to do as I want because it's my body.
I will not change the rest of the treatment because I know nothing about it but being like a zombie all day and sleeping 13 hours a day at least, I have to say no.
I'm going to have therapy to help me get some tools to use them when I start working and I need to be awake or I will be fired if I go to work like I'm drunk. My 1st Pdoc was very good in giving small doses of pills so we wouldn't feel sleepy and function like a "normal" person".
Let's see... If she wishes I will lie to her saying that I take Lexotan as she prescribed just to shut her up. Hhehehehehehehe Nobody owns me, not while I'm lucid enough to know what's best for me.
Thank you for the support dear Tabby it's always a pleasure chatting with you,
Alex
Ahhh
I knew there was a reason I liked your shareposts :)
You and I are not so far from the same cut of cloth alxv