I am a 49 year old married female mom to 3 boys ages 26, 24, 17. I have lately been in a deep depression and overwhelmed with work, home, relationships etc. But my heart stopped when I heard through my sister that my 17 year old does not feel like he has a mom - I wanted to slit my wrists right there. I was also a little upset that my sister did not tell me this right away. Maybe this is just me but I am not always aware of how much I am withdrawing. How to I talk to my sons about this? Their father and I are living together yet but that is all we share an address but not much else. He has run out of patience and felt I should have been "cured" by now. actually I guess that is the consensus of my family. they suggest getting a second opinion, etc but never to me. If I am withdrawing, not calling, not going out is it too much to ask that they try to get in contact with me. I feel like I am too high maintenance and that it is OK that I have bipolar as long as noone has to do anything for me. I am sorry for the rambling, I am just really low right now and feeling like my disappearance would have no consequence to anyone other than relief. Dolle 
