In 2006 my husband was diagnosed as rapid cycling bipolar with OCD and schizophrenic tendencies. The doctors put him on Depakote and Abilify and he was himself again. Then in March 2007 our healthfund ran out and we could no longer afford the $400 a month for the Abilify. He made the decision to go off his meds because he couldn't take the going off and going back on thing. It was too hard on his body.
I read where he could control symptoms with diet, supplements and exercise so he began taking a multivitamin and fish oil. Which worked for awhile until he started drinking more often. The weeks when he doesn't drink he seems to be doing well but as soon as he starts drinking I can see symptoms slowly starting to return.
Then he started smoking pot again. When he smokes his symptoms all come back full force. He's aggitated, his sleep cycle changes, no one can do anything right, everything makes him mad and I mean furiously mad. He yells and breaks things and none of us know what to do. We just hide and try not to talk or make any noise.
In 2008 he was diagnosed as diabetic so we started walking, went off sugar, caffeine and white flour. His triglycerides were in the 530's and the doctor said stop drinking. I thought for sure since he was making all the other drastic changes in his lifestyle that the drinking and smoking would stop but no. He just went from drinking 2 or 3 beers 6 to 7 days a week to drinking 18 to 24 beers and smoking 2 or 3 times on Friday and Saturday.
This past week he smoked every evening and I could see all of his symptoms getting worse and worse. He claims there is no connection between the pot and the increase in symptoms. Is there anyone else who notices an increase in symptoms after smoking or am I just crazy? If someone has an article or a personal experience story I could show him to prove that there is a connection between pot and increased symptoms I would be forever grateful.
I mean, it's such a dramatic change and you can look at him and tell he just feels awful. I don't understand how he could not get the connection. If that is the only thing you do different and you feel so bad wouldn't that be a clue?
I feel so bad for him and I feel bad for our 7 and 10 yr old boys because they don't deserve to live like this but then I know that it's his illness and he can't help it but then I think, "well, his choices are causing his symptoms." But if he doesn't admit the connection he won't make better choices and the vicious cycle continues...
I pray this makes sense to someone and that they can give me the information I'm looking for both for his sake and for our family. We've been through so much and all I want is for my husband to be well and to have peace in our home.