I suffer from extreme depression and at one point was heavily medicated. Due to financial problems I had to be taken off the medication. I now am noticing different things about my depression that worry me. I will get abnormally upset and angry over things that generally wouldn't phase me. I have thoughts that make no sense, such as your patient did. I think that all of the peoples problems are because of me, and it makes me want to hide in fear of being attacked. I have racing thoughts that seem to make sense in my head but as they are coming out of my mouth don't seem rational. I also do not hallucinate so much so as seeing things, but I do remember things that I know haven't happened. Such as converstations with people who have been long dead, and speaking with them as if they weren't. I do not believe I've done these things or many more like it, but it's getting harder to tell if they are just random psychosomatic thoughts, or if I'm actually losing touch with reality. I sleep only two to three hours every three days, and eat one meal every two days. I've lost twenty pounds in one month due to not eating alone. I cannot focus on everyday tasks, and when I need to get something accomplished I make up foolish and unreasonable excuses as to why it can wait. I am just wondering if maybe I am not depressed but bipolar. My old understanding of bipolarism was changing from one mood to the next, but I'm beginning to see it's not that simple. Although that is a new development as well. I can be completely content one minute, angry at the world for no reason the next, and then after that I feel guilt and remorse. So if I could just be told if this sounds like I need to see a doctor for this disorder, I'd really be appreciative.

Thanks.