Yesterday finally I accepted my role as a person living with bipolar disorder and joined the community of bipolars bippolar connect. In liivng I was trying to be something other than what I was this was making a problem. With lots of wiber and gibbers I had to fight upon whihc ere not realistic. As I did stopped fighting a new kind of peace has come upon me.

Not only this. I've also come upon towards accepting life as it and has begun  taking pleasure of life which i did not hope was so much nourishing.within the dissapointments, frsutation nad vice versa were really all been in the sliding role.

The thinking part has become really in ease. feelings are quite stable not as a normal person but ok which is more than always winding upon this or that. social behaviours are having meaning and also I'm towards becoming a cheerful person which was surely gone from me.

another thing which has happened as i did took this reality asa part of my life is others too have problems and every person livng is liivng with burden some problem as I live with. these things are becoming really  very striking.

life hs begun l having menaing. and searching for what other might have meant by sasying this or that have become having less meaining.having the insight that others always mean good has become a new way of thinking. others have a small portion of tiome with us and within the time period they areseeing themselves how we see them and thus they do not put their head upon what they think odf us.they behave as we behave.our face is lightful they stop to say hello if more closerthana little chat chat or some other if not they save theuir own heads andgo awayform us theydo not have time on ebeing with us.

well, having positive thinking atitude is also helping me as i accpeted myself as a bpad patient wich will remain with me for lifetime.

i am taking more rest. when ever i fele tired i stop and feel restful.

i have begun thinking of giivng exercise a time. lots of fat have been within me during these long time of obession with eating and having such a lot time of having time to feel anxious and vice versa. these need to be tkaen away.

today i brought a flower and kept it infront of the veranda.loo this was not as smooth time first of all i had to stop three times before reaching the nursery. loo what's it when i began  talking with the gardener it was all smooth. with love and enertia i did washed the flower potvery well. loo 3 years had been i had not planted anything yea. so bad . well tomotrrow and days to come others will begin seieing the change and again Basistha dai ramro garnu bho ajahi thapnu hosh hai. bhanera vbhanne chan. means Baisistha brother good thing yea add more flowers will be saying the folks in my community very soon.

family mmbers are also happy when i have stopped fighting with the unpleasant. they were too constnatly feeling bad about my outcomes they also felt very well. and were suggesting me this and that which was really wonderful.