Today was crappy.

1) After talking to multiple lawyers, my parents found out that getting guardianship of my bipolar, 20-year-old sister (she went AWOL a month ago) is pretty much impossible. With her being gone and not paying her student loans or rent (she and I rented an apartment together for over a year), I will more than likely lose my apartment.

2) My boyfriend and I broke up because with all of my family drama and his school drama we do not have time for each other. Or more so, he does not have time for me.

I have been trying so hard to keep myself together through all of the crap of the last two months. I make myself go to my psychiatrist, my therapist, my school support group, and AL ANON. I have met with my school advisor and disability service representative. I take my meds. I make sure I sleep and eat. I call my friends to keep from freaking out by myself. I just joined some online support groups. I am looking for more supports groups that I can go to in my area.

I just want the craziness to stop. I want calm. And I want to be surrounded by people who care and can actually be there for me. I really do not think that is so much to ask.