The cycles are really getting to me today.  Im learning to truly enjoy the good days....but the past three days Im bleh....I just want to lay around, sleep, eat, and make jewelry (my favorite past time).  I dont want to do step work with my AA Sponsor.  I dont want to go to AA, I dont want to do my BP Workbook.  I dont want to do anything.

I have a busy weekend coming up and Im trying to cancel as much as possible - and have cancelled everything I can....Im just overwhelmed....we have a big event tomorrow night with my husband's company and hes a major sponsor of the event - so I have to go and support him and be there for him.  I want to want to go to the event.  I dont WANT to go - but I should.  My husband is the MOST supportive person in my life (outside of professionals) and I love him so much.

I feel like Ive been a horrible wife with not paying enough attention to him.

We are helping a friend move on Sunday which we promised we woudl months ago and she has no family left to help - we are her family....so its hard....

The whole dam thing is hard.

UGHHH I hate feeling like this.

My weekend is shot - Im busy with work - I need to get in meetings, try to walk everyday, eat right, do my therapy, and I just want to scream STOP!

I just cant handle things today....my house is a mess to a degree - rooms that have been a mess for the longest time....still a mess.  I have all these great plans that I want to do and I cant get them done.  Im so sick of being a waste of space or at least feeling like this.

I just want to snap out of it!!!  Im trying....I just cant....ughhhhhhhhhhhh

does anyone have any advice on this?