I just had another rollercoaster ride with my Bipolar boyfriend he is not on medication does not want to go on anything and was really violent with me .I am not kidding things went flying I got shaken down a couple of times threats that you only hear in bad old movies.And he would not stop even when I backed off he was still given it .I asked him to calm down and he went more nuts and I need a break from this ...I also think he does not get what I am saying Like I will say something and he totally misinterperts it and gets all huffy,and then creams me on my stupidy and my selfishness and my lack of caring ...oh God help me this is not good I need some help here ...this native is really rough and does not know it .I always forgive but if I want to get immediate help when he is is in an episode it tiggers a violent side that is not good.
And after that he is sorry like sorry I banged your head or pushed you to hard...well any advice out there I feel like bailing but Christmas is coming and I am waiting on some money my finances are getting better and so are his but I need him to try some meds. and he just smokes pot right now....it does calm him but it is expensive and temporary ANY ADIVCE??? I do not want to move I am tired of moving around and I do not want to see him stuck on the streets.I really am comfortable where I am and know a lot of people so it seems dumb to uproot myself I was living like a moth to the flame for a while now it feels like someone lit a big match HELP
Pack your things, take your personal self, and get out or leave your things, get your personal self together, and get out. If he is clearly and blatantly a danger to you, himself, or to anyone else - call 911.
But you won't. Nope, you won't.
Convince yourself and folks about how good your life is, except this one particular detail. How everything is fine, except this one particular detail. How you love him and don't want him on the streets so you'll keep him with you - but he physically abuses you and threatens your safety/life.
You don't want to be advised to get out, you just want him to change. Uh, HE WON'T.
He can do what he wants, when he wants, and how he wants to you and you will allow him because you stay and you take it. You do not set boundaries and keep them cause you are afraid he'll leave you and you won't have him with you and you so love him even while he is physically putting his hands on you and shaking you - even in a clearly violent manic episode.
But you won't get out, nope - you won't.
You want someone else to figure it out for you and advise you and it not cost you anything. Course, he physically abusing you and verbally lashing out at you is costing your esteem, confidence, health, and your spirit - but hey, you got a nice place to live, a good neighborhood, etc etc etc
You aren't even married so no divorce or separation but hey... life is good except this one particular issue.