I had just recieved 5 books from a good friend of mine and one was about female stuff.It was so inspirational and healthy to digest someone's experience and define mine in a helpful way.Since I have been with my Biploar boyfriend I have been looking after him  even though he would protest and say it is the other way around .Often it left me feeling  exhausted as I know how hard it is to accept my choices to stay with him and work on myself and see through his ups and downs.This book I was reading was kind of sad in parts but very real ,I am a Christian so some people in the church might steer away from it as it was written by a Pagan but I totally got off on it as this person is a different religion but my God what a life she has had and so many losses.My heart was moved to bits by her honesty and strength and her willingness to look at herself.I cannot judge her by her faith yet she seems more in touch with creation then most church people .I know but I can hope that through all our trials we can find inner peace this is what I think she was looking for a lot. .Is'nt that all we are looking ? The trials and choices and fates we meet in life are meant for us to overcome evil and hostilities as best we can ,I cannot always believe the way another person believes all the time but I can find communion in the fact that we are drawn together for the same purpose to help one another overcome and draw understanding from our lives as a whole.Anyway being in Bipolar company has been good and it has been hard but learning all I can to help others and myself is a great reward .Sometimes I feel like God intention is to help me overcome parts of myself that were to closed up and to at least find a way to express it even though it has been rough.

This book I read is full of stuff like that and real human error that you almost gag on because you know **** well it could be anyones fate or destiny .Her ability to reach down and make sense of her journey in her life  seemed all  to tragic sometimes but gave me hope in my situaction and I felt a inner healing or rebirthing of things I had forgotten in my walk with God.It made my past experiences come alive a bit and what ever I doubted about them or had built up a wall around ,disappeared and I felt freed up about my own council distrust  and lack of understanding.What we say or think can shape us or what we experience from others. But how much God really loves us is beyond us all.

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