I have been feeling good for about a week now, I think my recent switch to Lamictal is working (no rash), and hopefully pretty soon I can get off the weight-gaining Zyprexa (which is the only drug that has ever worked for me--I refuse lithium and depakote because I have a needle phobia and can't bear to have my blood drawn.)

Anyway, sometimes I feel so normal it is unbelievable. I actually believe I have been mis-diagnosed. Then 2 days later I am so depressed I am planning out my suicide. I have many other problems that I think stem from the BD (constant migraines, anxiety, phobias, anorexia), so I know I am not normal. But isn't it nice to forget about all these problems for a while and just walk around like a regular person? Does anyone else feel like your not "sick" sometimes and be so happy just to have an ordinary, not crazy, day?