I having lots of different emotions today and i am finding it very hard to deal with them, my main problem is anger, just can't seem to shake it off. I am shouting at everyone that speeks to me for really no reason at all. I don't know if it's because i am pregnant and off meds or it's just one of those bipolar days. I think i know what started it  my ex asked to meet up to talk about the pregnacy what we are going to do when the baby is born. He annoyed me by telling my that he is back with his ex and dosen't know if he can be at the birth or not just in cass it upsets his ex/girlfriend again. Then to add to it all he tells me that he has told his parents and that is dad wanted to know if he was the father because i could be some sort of slag who got fed up and wanted to entrap him for his money. I didn't show i was mad and told him that in time the dna would speak for it's self. He tells me he wants to be there for the baby but he will have to be careful not to upset his girlfriend. I feel so much hate towards him for using me and lieing and cheating on me and now putting his girlfriend before his own baby. It's not just the anger i have a scan on wedensday my first, i am worried that something is going to be wrong with the baby or that i have lost the baby i don't even know why i think that, just keeping thinking everything is going to be wrong, i was so pleased when my apponitment come through. but now I am scared that i am going to do something wrong but i don't know what. So i am angery, scared, worried, upset but happy with a little confussion. I don't know how to stop all these i just want to concentrate on this pregnacy but can't seem to. Any help with how to deal with these feelings would be greatly recived?. My ex wants to be kept informed of how i am doing but that's it untill he decides to call another meeting which he said would be next month then he will give me money to buy things then he will know more. Don't know how to deal with that. Although i really shouldn't have to deal with it.

Just worrying to much and then i start worry that all this mixed emotions isn't going to do the baby any good. But then that starts off even more emotions,  it's just like one big circel. . 

Keep trying to feel my adomen to see if i can feel anything sometimes i think i can other times i don't think i can't. It has got a little obsessed with doing that now. Tryed to get apointment to see my pdoc but they didn't have any untill mid november. Hoping writing that this will help me. And any advice would be of help.