Friday, June 03, 2011
In October of last year my only Uncle commited suicde. I am still trying to get over that. Since it seems everything has been going downhill for me. Relasped on drugs, self mutalation,so stressed want to just leave, seeing and hearing more than normal, paranoia,dengerative disc disease, sciatica of the right leg, etc...
I've been having more and more eposides. I'm trying very very hard but seem to to take three steps forward and two back. I had a big stresser in my life and got rid of him.
I'm barely hanging on and if it wasn't for my daughter yea no telling what I would do. Had to leave my job last year as I started freakin out very bad.
I have my BF(God) with me at all times and hopefully, fingers crossed get better.
Hi. I read your post and it sounded a little like myself. I am really no good at giving advice or anything like that.
I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone, i get how you are feeling. My best friend commited sucide and it really hurt me and took ages to deal with it. Then just as i was coming to terms with it 2 years later i had a miscarriage it was twins and i was 17 weeks and 6 days gone. That sent me right off the rails.
You will never forget and you will never get over it but it will become easier with time. Even when it feels like it never will get easier. even when you feel like you can't do it anymore. You can you are stronger then that. Don't give in to the illness don't let it win. It's not easy fighting this illness but you can fight it. You still have so much to live for.
Give your self time and don't be so hard on yourself give yourself a break. Spend as much time as you can with your daughter. She needs her mum.
I am sorry about your uncle.
I wish you all the very best.
Bless you.